My Difficult, Painful, Grueling 4th Week on Medium

And how I eventually saw my way past it…

There I was, speeding through my daily writing goals, week 4.

“I don’t understand what they’re talking about,” my over-confident inner dialog was chattering.

Oh, how self-assured, and admittedly, judgmental was I!

“Almost everyone’s instinct is to be overconfident and read way too much into a hot or cold streak.” Nate Silver

Then suddenly, all these feelings I hadn’t connected with writing — Indecision, self-doubt, recrimination.

Suddenly stories were out of my grasp, clear thoughts had become clouded.

Where had all my confidence gone? Why was no story good enough?

Why were my stats not markedly improving? A dip in my views and reads — What is happening?

So as you may have guessed, week 4 wasn’t quite the breeze the first three weeks had been. No longer was the writing flowing easily…

Perhaps I’d simply run out of steam, out of ideas, never to rise to the occasion again?

What got to me the most was the self-doubt that hadn’t been part of my story until this week…